well.. think sm is gonna kill me if i dun update this thing.. haha.. but den.. sm.. i can't see your entries too!
anyway... things are holding me back. didn't manage to get access to the internet for long recently and busy w some stuff at home. also... was taking some time to think if i sld continue w this blog. hehe...
dunno... many things were on my mind recently. met up w the lpz on fri and it set me to think even more. lpz always give me a feeling that they r willing to always give and nv wanted any return. sometimes i wonder y i was in e grp. i felt that i'm always the more selfish one, the only one that says no to all the crazy ideas and the only one stoning in the meetings. think if i were the others, i wld have kicked myself out of lp. haha..
sometimes i wonder, r we all that close? some of us close to each other only? that day, when we were sitting outside cartel, i was thinking.. will we still be like that 10 yrs down e road? when we r married w children, will e friendship still be there? when we dun have any spare time and out prorities r diff, will we still care for each other? pp change. will lp change? r we that kind of frens that we will call each other when we r in need? or r we just enjoying each other's company? we can click better in the whole JC? no more crazy gers in NY?
was toking to one of my sec close fren sometimes ago. she's someone that i used to think she's my closest close fren. but things change. she's still my gd fren. but still.. it's diff.. guess she will be very sad if she know that this is how i feel. but i cannot help it. it's just a feeling i get.
anyway.. we were toking abt close frens we have. she was jealous tt i can have close guy frens. guess it's coz she's pretty, so she can't really be just frens w guys. but i was jealous that she have frens that she can call at 4am in the morning. i wouldn't know who to call at 4am if i need anyone. is it coz i dun have anyone or is it that i'm just too paiseh to call? i was asked. i dunno the ans. i always felt tt pp will toke to u at 4am, but not willingly. however, sometimes i dun even know who to call at 4pm.
i have many many good frens, esp those of u who have a chance to read this. but den where is my soulmate? pls dun be offended... u all r great pals. i will share w u all.. but dun anyone of u feel e same as me? i dun really have frens who will come straight to me when he/she have probs and i dun always go to e same person when i have a prob. esp as i grow older, i tend to not go to anyone with my probs anymore. is it good?
wow! say soooooooo much! hehe.. my dear frens, pls dun be offended by it k! hehe... it's just some thoughts of mine. hahah...
3 comments:
haaa.. i wunt kill ya la...haa.. 4 e LP qn.. i tot i was e selfish one too.. hee.. dunno lehz.. in a way i felt a bit bad like making u ppl to do things that u ppl may not reallie enjoy.. haa.. nvm.. i got over it le.. haa...hee.. guess there's always a time phrase where we r close to some1 in LP n not the otrs.. haa.. like a period i was close to cindy.. another period to jane another w u.. another w jinda.. haa... but ok la.. as a whole we seem to be a close grp of frens.. but deep inside we dun reallie share a lot of our thots n feelings... prob it's jus "dun bother other ppl la.. i'll just settle my own prob"... in a way.. we are all willing to help our frens esp LP when they hv prob but we just dun seem to wan others to help us when we hv prob.. prob at hm.. prob w other frenz... haa.. in a way.. so far...*touch wood* i dun hv any prob to share loz..other than pms n some low tides..haa.. but well.. i dunno how to say leh... haa..
I guess we shld just enjoy each otr company now.. whether we will still b close when one after another gets attached n stuff reallie depends on how we treasure each other now...
haa.. 4am..u can try call me.. haa.. tho i dunno if u'll manage to get me outta my bed anot.. hee... u noe how pig i am... but 1 ting 4 sure.. i wun call u.. haa.. cos ur hp is off!!! how to call??!! haha...
dun tink anyone will b offended by ur blog la silly gal.. hee... well... it takes 2 to clap b4 a soulmate is found... hmm.. u set me wondering.. who's my soulmate?! haa...
are u ok? hrmm.. got me @ 4am.. heh~ anythin can jus call ya.. phone is on 24 hrs a day, 7 days a wk, 365 days a yr except during times when the owner becomes a bum and too lazy to charge the phone.. otherwise, its accident free and is on ALL the time.. really know.. although put it in a light tone.. but seriously, anythin can call me.. (cos cos cos free incomin..).. no lah sorrie huh.. cos cant write things without injectin some lame stuff in.. yah.. in conclusion, JUS CALL IF U NEED TO, DONT NEED TO ALSO CALL.. =)
ok sister sometimes u keep as many things from me as i do to you hmph so much for being fair huh. Hee but nvm lah i undersatnd how ya feel. i mean just as all of them said can try callling me at four dun worrie i can wake up i guess i mean my phone is on loudest haha. And just a comment not to insult u all, but why is it girls are the ones who like think so much then become depressed then take it as a phase in ur life???? lack man, understand what i mean haha u can come find me anytime any dae ya haha be on the ball and dun worrie time will be allocated for u no need for early booking hehe. See i this bro so goot right can still remember ur blogging thingy haha.
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