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Tuesday, July 20, 2004
lost....
was thinking abt alot of things in camp... 1st... thinking if i sld take up 6 modules next sem.. it means 6 days 6 modules... my frens are dropping one... used to think that i wanna give it a shot and try, but den now... dun wanna take 6 modules alone... was thinking abt it the whole night yesterday... guess now.. i will just drop.. coz think the core modules next sem quite tough... dun feel like overestimating myself... will start thinking which to drop now.. hai...
another thing.. in hall camp now... they went sentosa today.. but my roomie dun wanna go... so, as usual, i didn't go also. dunno y i cannot be more independent and move on on my own. dunno y i nv grow up and be independent... hai... actually i also dun really wanna go one.. but den somebody will be going.. u pp remember my crush in hall? haha.. thought i'm over him... but den hehe... u know wat la... actually he's not cute... but... frenster's open marriage mean? attached? hai... he used to put single... den change to in a relationship.. den now open marriage.. dunno y now change.. dunno who his gf is if he got one... dun even know him... feel so hopeless and helpless.. keep seeing him talking to my fren beside me but... we can stare at each other for awhile but den will look away next.... when he smile in my direction, i dunno wat to do... sld i smile back? i dun... den felt that i'm like so dao... he will just smile and look away... give me a feeling that he expect me to smile back.. but den how am i suppose to? i dun even know him... dun even know if he's smiling to me.. haha... in a state of confussion... haha... actually i wanna go sentosa is becoz of him.. coz he will be going w them... other den that.. i dun quite like sentosa now... dunno if i will get a chance to know him this yr... it's his final yr..
i guess independence is something i can nv be.. i will always need pp to tell me wat to do and make the decision for me... 6 modules? go sentosa? if only 1 day, i will make decision on my own and not care abt wat others say and be more confidence of myself...
another thing.. in hall camp now... they went sentosa today.. but my roomie dun wanna go... so, as usual, i didn't go also. dunno y i cannot be more independent and move on on my own. dunno y i nv grow up and be independent... hai... actually i also dun really wanna go one.. but den somebody will be going.. u pp remember my crush in hall? haha.. thought i'm over him... but den hehe... u know wat la... actually he's not cute... but... frenster's open marriage mean? attached? hai... he used to put single... den change to in a relationship.. den now open marriage.. dunno y now change.. dunno who his gf is if he got one... dun even know him... feel so hopeless and helpless.. keep seeing him talking to my fren beside me but... we can stare at each other for awhile but den will look away next.... when he smile in my direction, i dunno wat to do... sld i smile back? i dun... den felt that i'm like so dao... he will just smile and look away... give me a feeling that he expect me to smile back.. but den how am i suppose to? i dun even know him... dun even know if he's smiling to me.. haha... in a state of confussion... haha... actually i wanna go sentosa is becoz of him.. coz he will be going w them... other den that.. i dun quite like sentosa now... dunno if i will get a chance to know him this yr... it's his final yr..
i guess independence is something i can nv be.. i will always need pp to tell me wat to do and make the decision for me... 6 modules? go sentosa? if only 1 day, i will make decision on my own and not care abt wat others say and be more confidence of myself...
explanation...
the belows are 2 results i get from some quiz and got 1 for u all to try.. i got them from my fren's blog....
Monday, July 19, 2004
Sunday, July 11, 2004
sooooooo black! sooooo ugly!
well... i guess my previous blog kinda shock most of u.. hehe.. u all dun worry k.. i'm just like that... will think of all this once in a while one..
hehe... ya.. jane.. wanna tell u to think twice b4 u join jcrc.. coz it's gonna change your whole yr's life.. u know wat i mean? i dun wanna see a shag jane all e time.. but if u really like it.. den go for it.. coz u r just too capable.. hehe...
ya.. i just came back from camp. soooo black. and i really agree w my mum this time.. i'm so ugly! dunno how i got myself so black this time. haha.. anyway.. finally got over e whole thing. no longer have to face gm anymore.. she's like a bitch. and i'm like one too, bitching abt her everyday in camp. haha.. so bad. really like the co chair of the programmers. he's sooooooo nice. he's not like manly, coz he's scared of everything. water, height, ... everything that a guy will normally not admit being afraid of. but he's just nice! look beng but super responsible. the silent worker type. hehe... dunno y... hehe... just super like him.. (not that type tt u all r thinking k!)
ya... actually dunno wat to say liao... actually wanna complain abt my bro one.. but now super tired and think u all r also tired abt me complaining abt him. haha... anyway... i wanna zzz liao.. tell u pp more some other time.. take care! miss ya!
hehe... ya.. jane.. wanna tell u to think twice b4 u join jcrc.. coz it's gonna change your whole yr's life.. u know wat i mean? i dun wanna see a shag jane all e time.. but if u really like it.. den go for it.. coz u r just too capable.. hehe...
ya.. i just came back from camp. soooo black. and i really agree w my mum this time.. i'm so ugly! dunno how i got myself so black this time. haha.. anyway.. finally got over e whole thing. no longer have to face gm anymore.. she's like a bitch. and i'm like one too, bitching abt her everyday in camp. haha.. so bad. really like the co chair of the programmers. he's sooooooo nice. he's not like manly, coz he's scared of everything. water, height, ... everything that a guy will normally not admit being afraid of. but he's just nice! look beng but super responsible. the silent worker type. hehe... dunno y... hehe... just super like him.. (not that type tt u all r thinking k!)
ya... actually dunno wat to say liao... actually wanna complain abt my bro one.. but now super tired and think u all r also tired abt me complaining abt him. haha... anyway... i wanna zzz liao.. tell u pp more some other time.. take care! miss ya!
