is this wat i want?

wah! try millions of times b4 it works and let me blog... =(
so sian... now got no mood liao... haha.... and i got no mood to study... giddy... but i got enough sleep leh.. i used to sleep lesser last time.. like less den 4 hrs also can? but now dunno y.. must sleep so much... den just now do paper do until have way.. giddy... dehydrated... need water.. den nv bring water bottle in...=( haha.. so wanted to walk out of the exam hall just now... see quest den faint liao.. duno even know wat they asking... spend half an hr reading one small part of the quest... wth.. and still dunno wat it wants... =(
was thinking abt something these few days.. ot maybe since yesterday... is this the life tt i want? stress? it's going to be stress forever leh... i mean like next time go home at 2 am and stuff is ok w me.. but it's e stress... it's not even something tt i like... is $ alone enough to make me go on? making myself come so far here.. in the 'wonderful' uni... wanting to quit sch every sem.. but no guts.. am i going to have a life like tt forever? but $ is so impt! haha.. i used to think it;s nothing... and i dun give a damn abt it.. but.. haiz... old liao.., start to see the importance of it...
wat will u all and ur kind next time when they ask: mummy... y do i have to study? ans: coz it's gd for u?
wat is so good? ok if u enjoy it.. i used to like studying.. believe it or not.. haha.. but now i hate it... i think i will even hate going to sch soon... haiz... studying will give u a better life? is it true? is working day and night... no happiness equal to a better life?
wat is life? born - study - work - married - give birth - scold kids - die?
stress over everything coz if u dun acheive it.. pp will look down on u? study must study well.. so tt u can like study forever? till phd? (permenant head damage) work must find gd job and get promoted? married must find someone first... haiz... (y like tt also stress? pp will ask.. so u got bf anot? need me to intro? wa lau!) give birth must be boy... and MUST give birth... must educate kids well... if not they blame u... die... haha... hopefully we will all die peacefully.. if not stress over all e stupid sickness also... haiz..
haha.. opps... complain too much again... and sldnt be toking abt this during exam.. haha
ya... and i'm psychologically sound.. hopefully.. this time nobody try to counsel me again
haha