a msg to a fren..

so sad tonight.. suppose to research on my fyp stuff.. coz tml they coming to my house to do fyp.. and i haven done anything yet! so lazy.. but no one reply me on my msn.. i feel so deserted.. so down.. haha...
ya.. was thinking abt this particular 'thing' for some time.. so i decided to write a msg to tt particular fren here.. u can say this entry is solely dedicated to him.. haha.. he so BIG right? but i dunno when he will chance upon this page again.. prob nv.. but i guess this is the only avenue.. coz i will nv be able to tell him all this directly.. i will prob just forgive him for that moment. haha.. and cindy will prob understand.. guess many of u know who is it by now.. haha...
ya.. i felt tt i've lost this bro this sem. i nv felt this way last time when he got attached.. when he got so sticky w his gf and gf above everything till this sem when he moved in hall.. i dunno is it becoz i moved back home liao.. so very free.. but he dun seem to be my good fren anymore. haha.. although i used to say good frens need not keep in contact everyday.. as long as u care for each other.. it's sufficient. and i have been esp tolerant towards this fren of mine. reason unknown. haha..guess last time i felt the care and concern. now i dun. think we started off being gd frens from all the concern cooments like: 'u ok? dun bluff.' 'take care k' 'f*** him la'.. all this minor minor things. we r the kind of good frens tt dun actually have much topic to chat abt.. we can just sit there keeping quiet and just happy we have the company. den will go to each other when we need a listening ear. haha.. he used to can take my rubbish quite well.. haha.. although yang also la.. tt's another id***. hahaha.. but tt's normal..
but recently.. things seem to centered ard his hall and gf.. i'm ok w the gf part.. and i can understand tt hall stuff very busy.. but hey! i used to stay in hall too! and i can talk to u till like 2-3am? ok.. i' not tt active.. but still... and the worse thing.. last time.. hey sorry for reply ur sms so late.. now? no reply! cindy got so worried abt him tt she keep asking me if he is alright. and he can actually tell me.. hey.u gers dun be angry k? u know.. e usual 'innocent' and pls forgive me tone? i really try to be understanding.. i'm not like his gf.. y sld i ask so much from him? tt's wat i always used to think. but recently... i dunno.. dun seem to be able to be an understanding ger anymore.. coz being nice to him was no longer appreciated like last time.. things given to him not as much treasured too..
i know he tried very hard to have a balance life.. coz i still get the call once in a blue blue moon. and the going out.. once in the red red moon. and the concern once in a few full moon.(hehe.. this is a bit more often) but the concerns seem not as sincere as last time liao..
ok! end of complaint! no fuss over this entry.. just wanna say out something tt i have thinking abt.